Life goes on

Not too much going on now. Other than the usual holiday stuff. I kind of am feeling a lack of purpose in my life. I work a rewarding job, but that's about it for purpose in my life. I'm not entirely sure what to do with myself. The mundane of every day is getting to me. I adore reading and watching chic flicks. I think I've always used those as escapes from my real life and sometimes feel depressed when they're over.

Preparation...

Today is day 35... still waiting. I'm not pregnant. I actually ended up taking 2 tests yesterday- both negative. The good thing about this whole situation is last night, DH and I sat down and had a really great talk. Yesterday, he was convinced I was pregnant and really had himself prepared for it. Apparently he had run numbers on our finances and realized with his new job, we'd be okay. He actually would have been excited! Almost makes me wish I was pregnant... I kind of am disappointed I'm not, but this isn't the time. I was actually starting to think that an August baby would have been fun and I thought about ways to tell our families over Christmas. It would have been perfect because everyone would have been together at the same time and I would give my nephew a "I'm going to be a big cousin" t-shirt for Christmas and let people figure it out. Oh well, in God's timing. This one was just to prepare us, I think.