Life goes on

Not too much going on now. Other than the usual holiday stuff. I kind of am feeling a lack of purpose in my life. I work a rewarding job, but that's about it for purpose in my life. I'm not entirely sure what to do with myself. The mundane of every day is getting to me. I adore reading and watching chic flicks. I think I've always used those as escapes from my real life and sometimes feel depressed when they're over.

Preparation...

Today is day 35... still waiting. I'm not pregnant. I actually ended up taking 2 tests yesterday- both negative. The good thing about this whole situation is last night, DH and I sat down and had a really great talk. Yesterday, he was convinced I was pregnant and really had himself prepared for it. Apparently he had run numbers on our finances and realized with his new job, we'd be okay. He actually would have been excited! Almost makes me wish I was pregnant... I kind of am disappointed I'm not, but this isn't the time. I was actually starting to think that an August baby would have been fun and I thought about ways to tell our families over Christmas. It would have been perfect because everyone would have been together at the same time and I would give my nephew a "I'm going to be a big cousin" t-shirt for Christmas and let people figure it out. Oh well, in God's timing. This one was just to prepare us, I think.

The latest...

I was going to type "the latest pregnancy scare" but I don't want to call it that. It's not a scare; it's a blessing. I'm to the point that I get disappointed during these times when it turns out we didn't get pregnant. I shouldn't be disappointed, especially because we're not trying to have a baby; just not trying as hard not to.
So this month I had surgery on day 1 of my cycle (for a fracture repair) and therefore was not paying much attention to my mucous or taking my temps this cycle. On day 23, we figured we were fine pretty much solely based on the day... not such a great idea if we really were trying to prevent. My cycles range from 26-34 days and now on day 31, still no AF. I've had cramps and PMS symptoms for a few days now and I'm a little suspicious. I guess I'll wait until day 34 before a HPT. I would be excited to be pregnant, but this is not the best time to be since I'm supposed to be getting more x-rays soon. Not sure what I'm thinking. My gut says I'm not pregnant.

Purpose of this blog

I've been married since April 2006. I'm 25 and my husband is 28. We are strong Catholics and have been using Natural Family Planning successfully to prevent pregnancy. Originally we planned to wait 5 years... I have a feeling it will be sooner than that. We have had a few times that we weren't playing it by the safest rules and thought we might be pregnant because of a longer cycle than usual. The first one was scary because my husband was so regretful about the whole situation. I was terrified that he would be so negative if we were pregnant. Things are getting better now. Now instead of an "oh no" to a possible pregnancy, he says "we'll be fine either way". :) Good boy.