Bummed out...

No terrible reason why, but it's a blah day today. We just got back from a wonderful cruise to cold weather and piles of work. My first day back to work in 2 weeks was terrible and I want to become a mom so I can quit. I am having such bad cramps I didn't start feeling good enough to move until 1pm. I'm feeling really lonely. My friend who said she would call me back this morning still hasn't. So of course I'm wasting my day away watching movies and not being productive which makes me feel worse about myself. What a rut.